Hello from beautiful Pensacola, Florida!
Hey y'all! Well, I am writing this blog to stay in touch with those I have separated from... plus I think it'll be an amazing outlet for my feelings and thoughts. I graduated from college (ahhh!) almost a whole month ago. I left my best friends and memories behind in Orlando to move back home. As everyday passes I wonder more and more if that was the best decision for me. Sure, I love having the support and networking tools from my family and friends, but I kind of think living in Orlando for five years might have shaped me into a big city seeker.
I'm not gonna lie... I have searched jobs anywhere from Miami, Orlando, Atlanta, to New York. I have a feeling it'll happen eventually. Right now I just need get my feet on the ground and get a resume building job (this has proven to be harder than expected.) Everytime I open my computer and see my resume I wish I could shoot fire out of my eyes. I think I have revamped it over 40 times. That thing has proven to be a full time job in itself; along with the stressful job hunt. On the positive, I received a huge job lead yesterday afternoon from my family. We can hope and pray that this lead atleast turns into an interview. I submitted my cover letter, resume, and references at noon today. Keep your fingers crossed for me... please!
As for the fun stuff... well, in the grand spectrum of things to do and nightlife in Pensacola doesn't hold a candle to Orlando. I've turned into a bookworm and movie buff. I am reading about 4 books right now and EVERY magazine I can get ahold of! I don't think I really knew how lonely life would be with all of my bestfriends holding full time jobs, but I am making the best of it and know whatever slump I am in right now will be cured when I get back on a routine schedule.
There seems to be no better spot to put this than right here. Those of you who know me know about the recent strife I have faced in the male department. Basically, I pretty much give up. It's gotten to that point. I NEVER thought of myself as a hard person to talk to. Well, umm apparently I was wrong. It's been almost 2 weeks without a solid conversation after my begging and pleading. I usually never throw myself out there. I always figure, "well, if he wants to talk... he'll come to me." In this case I did the exact opposite hoping he would eventually come around. Good thing I haven't held my breath... he still hasn't and I still can't figure out why. For the past two weeks I have felt confused, frustrated, and semi- worthless because after all we had been through I should be worth 10 minutes of his time. I found a quote that fits the situation perfectly:
"My heart is on my sleeve & that's where it'll stay until the day you're brave enough to walk my way & tell me the things you were too stubborn to say."
Well, as of right now I'm off to get ready for the Fiesta Party tonight. I hope everyone is doing well.
-S
Oh Steph! How I miss you. I really like the quote you choose for the "boy department" section of your blog. It's perfect. Also, best of luck with the job lead! I'm crossing my fingers for you! Any company, male and friend would be lucky to have you in their life. I know I am :)
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